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2005-02-24 - 3:34 p.m. And I was thinking about how sad this is last night. I wouldn't say that I am the most desperate underachiever I know, but I am. A desperate underachiever. Or rather it's that I don't agree with the notion that I deserve really good things to happen to me. And any feelings of entitlement I ever do have, are married and bickering with the guilt of having them. And yesterday I realized that I am honestly, and very un-romantically, ashamed of the logistics of being a human being. It's hard for me to talk about, because I don't understand it yet. I'm upsetting myself.
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