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January 13, 2010 - 8:33 This particular one begins to stalk me, threatening to kill me on a daily basis. I am terrified. Every day I try to call her, but she doesn't answer. I escape my home at night to find her; after attempting to seduce my stalker/mental captor, and him telling me that I am nothing but a child, shaking me, but releasing me. I do find her, at a lookout point at the top of a very long flight of wooden stairs, moss overgrown and slippery, obscured in fog. She refuses to speak to me, but I intuit that those men were hired, by her, or my father, to kill me. I shake her and hug her, violently, and demand that she take it back. I yell, over and over, "you are my mother." But she is gone, won't speak or look at me. I awoke feeling sick with loneliness and created betrayal, actual nausea.
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